Week 134- I am a dope

Snowstorm, enormous sinus headache and at noon I realized "Aw shit. I didn't weigh in!"

Week 133- Welcome to a New Year!

A new year brings new resolutions and so off to the gym I go. But first lemme get this out of the way:

Starting weight: 264.2
Weight last week: 233.6
Current weight: 243.1
Lost this week: .5

Total lost to date: 21.1

Weight left to lose: 63.1

Sweet Cracker Sandwich, that's pretty sad, after all that. I'm not going to focus on the failures of the past, because they will only get me further behind.

Oh, I am changing the weigh-in day to Wednesday because I am off and some days at 5:15 when I leave the house for work I have not pooped so BANWAP is not possible.

Let's be Done by 41!

Week 130- This should not be what it takes...

I am at the age now where older relatives start, well to be blunt, dying.

My cousin (more properly, my father's cousin) died on Friday and she was only 66. Holy Shit and etcetera! That's not all that much older than I am, and it scares the living hell out out of me.

She was drastically overweight, and diabetic and while that wasn't what ultimately killed her, but it sure as hell didn't help her situation, that's for damn sure.

I'm scared, I don't mind telling you.

I have to tighten up my shit and do it quick.

It's a start.

I know tomorrow the Holiday Eating Season gets into full swing and I am sort of dreading it. Oh, I like my family, don't get me wrong, but I tend to eat like I am going to the electric chair on Thanksgiving. At my mother in law's one year I put away a good portion of the leftover turkey (with a little help, but still!)

Ah well, I am back at the gym tomorrow because I can be, and then it's a ballistic day on Black (coffee) Friday. Hopefully I will be able to go again then.

Saturday looks like a Flea Market Day(tm) if the weather holds up.

Week 127- I come to the conclusion that I need to do something drastic

Starting weight: 264.2
Weight last week: 239.4
Current weight: 243.6
Lost this week: UP 4.2

Total lost to date: 20.6

Weight left to lose: 63.4

All right, lets face it, almost 6 pounds up in three weeks is simply unacceptable. I'm completely disgusted with myself. I am becoming the same very out of shape guy I was when I started this journey and that seriously pisses me off. My clothes are tight again, and I am tired all the time.

I just feel pretty miserable and I'm eating like I feel. I sort of feel out of contool about it. The very early hours at work son't especially help, because I eat breakfast at like 5:30 am and lunch at like 10:30. I want to eat dinner later, but when I get out of work at 1 I am freaking famished some days.

I just need to make better food choices. I know what I'm doing, I feel like I'm watching someone else do it sometimes, you know?

Back into it, hardcore. Walking tonight for sure.

Week 125 And still, I grow ever fatter...

Starting weight: 264.2
Weight last week: 230.0
Current weight: 239.4
Lost this week: UP 1.4

Total lost to date: 24.8

Weight left to lose: 59.4

Week 124- still no comment :(

Starting weight: 264.2
Weight last week: 239.9
Current weight: 238.0
Lost this week: 1.9

Total lost to date: 26.2

Weight left to lose: 58.0